Transparency

Stardate: 23899.6 -- November 24, 2008 22:22

It is a place I never want to be in, yet always seem to find my way back there over and over again. I prohibit myself from going back. There should never be allowed such a place. But there it is...
I don't understand why everyone can just see right through me. It's like I don't exist. Acceptance comes at a very high price. I beg for it. But I must have faded away a very long time ago. It's to the point where I'll never be seen again. I'm all alone and in the end, that's where everyone ends up.
Right now, I'm sad. I'm in my lonely place. As I said...this is where I always find myself. I don't want to be here, but there is nowhere else to go. I can only just wait to be found...to be rescued. If only I wasn't so transparent.